I was depressed last night
Just all the sudden
Depressed it seems over nothing
I felt as though I wanted to sleep underneath my bed
Curled into a ball
All alone
Because no one understood me
At least not anyone around me
No one could read my mind
No one knew what I wanted
And the things I enjoyed
And what would make me feel better
So I thought about it
Could I even fit under there?
Under my bed
Victim to anything that crawled
It’s almost as if I love feeling vulnerable
Sad
Fragile
Fragile like glass
Yes I’m glass
Call me Mrs. Glass
Held up by what seems is a just a toothpick
My balance is uneasy
Constantly shifting
From one side to another
One side to another
I feel woozy
Sick
I hate feeling like this
Uneasy
Off balance
Never knowing when my emotions will shift
But what can i expect from life
This tooth pick I stand on is constantly shoved at all directions
Shoved to the left with hurtful words
Shoved to the right with menacing looks
Shoved to the middle with disgusted expressions
How can I stand firm
Keep my balance
Find support
When the whole world seems to be against me
Shoot
My health’s against me
They all want me to fall
Crash to the ground and shatter into pieces
That not even glue can put back together
How can I exist never knowing when the inevitable will occur?
I don’t know
I don’t have the answers
All I know is whether I stand tall
Straight
Unmoved
Off balanced
Shoved backward, forward and in all directions
Whether I fall to the ground and break in a million pieces
I am still me
Off balance but in existence
Broken but in existence
Whether I am whole or in a million pieces I am me
Life can push as it may
Life can cause my spirits to fall
Life can break down my courage
But because I live and get through life’s obstacles
I have risen above
I have risen above everything and everyone
I am not blocked by the mountain
I am the mountain
Steadfast and strong
And nothing and no one can rise above me
Because
I… am… a rock