Bipolar Member Introductions

#123

Hi everyone, i just wanted to introduce myself. My name is Rebeka. I’ not bipolar. However my younger sister and my boyfriend are both bipolar. My sister has a few other issues as well. I’m also starting to suspect my youngest sister is bipolar. It defintally seems to run in my family as 2 of my uncles and my grandmother was bipolar as well.

My sister was diagnosed 12 years ago at the age of 7. It was after her first suscide attempt that she was diagnosed. She’s attempted suscide 2 other times.

My boyfriend was diagnosed just last year. And he refuses to take any meds or go to councling.

So i just thought i’d introduce myself.

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#125

I am 36 years old. I have 3 kids who don’t need me as much. I have a husband who needs me to be more than I can be. I don’t feel confident about myself or future. I have been told to go back to school but lack the motivation and brains(I feel) to successfully attain that as a goal. I have noticed that I have a hard time staying with one thing. Even house work I get distracted and go on to other things. I seem fickle about things. Other than other people’s lives. I am very judgemental about their choices but lack any success in mine. I am lost and seem out of control of my emotions. I am up and down like a roller coaster. Except I never can get off this ride. What I would give to be able to take the advice that I so easily can hand out. If seems as if I am all alone in this world. I never have felt valuable enough. I can make others feel good but lack the ability to make me feel good. I am looking for others…to understand.

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#126

I have been living with Bipolar disorder for many years and I need a support group or just someone to talk to when I am having trouble.

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#127

I was just diagnosed with this condition and want to talk with other people who have it

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#128

i would like to learn more about the condition that my wonderful son has to live with

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#129

I was taking anti-depressants for three years, but have now been off them for a year. I suppose I’m getting by; sometimes doing well, but with quite frequent slumps where I don’t want to leave my room or do anything/see anybody. Then I pick myself up and get out there again. My faith has helped, but is also hugely problematic when I’m struggling and wonder where God’s gone/if He’s there - it compounds my emotions and I think there’s a lot of guilt tied up there. I haven’t self-harmed for about a year, but the urges are weekly and get quite strong. At the moment I’ve just had a mid-week slump and am intending to get exercising again, because it does seem to help. If i don’t completely hate how I look I have more of a chance of going out and about! Essentially I’m quite a happy person, but I’m very sensitive and have felt let down a lot. I know what I’ve had to deal with many people might shrug off, but things seem to hit me hard, which then makes me feel weak and a bit of a loser, which in turns makes me more depressed! the end.
Oh, also; i’d quite like to achieve a lot, so that it’s all served a purpose, being down and out etc. But sometimes, my only desire is to make it through life with killing myself.

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#130

i have been living with bipolar for years, sometimes fighting the battle makes me want to scream

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#131

I am interested in learning more about this condition and hearing other people’s stories. There are several people in my family tree with this disorder. I am having trouble with the medications. I have tried my 3rd med and had side effects with all 3. I am waiting for my next appt to see what we will try next.

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#132

I am 14 years old.

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#133

i have been living with bipolar for what seems like forever, and sometimes the world just makes me want to scream .

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#134

i have been living with bipolar for years, and lately there is more depression than manic . the men at my part time job have grabby hands , and its making me even lower, than i usually am.

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#135

I have a bi-polar diagnosis and trying different meds. Have not found one yet that I like.

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#136

I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia, lupus and bipolar all in the years 1993 and 1996. I have recently been diagnosed with RA,It has been a struggle to maintain family and work with all of this but I am determined to do it.
I have had some really bad times and know I will in the future but I am trying to arm myself with as much knowledge as I can on these setbacks and hope that I can be strong enough to handle all that is thrown my way.
I’m a wife,mother and grandma so I have a lot of support from everyone.
As I say,
All that is left to do,Is pray and don’t forget to breathe.

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#137

hi im Elane , and i am struggling with bipolar . i was diagnosed with the disorder 4 years ago . what a treat . a year after i turn 30 , i get what feels like a death sentence . i know there are lots of people with worse problems , people who are actually dying , but the lows are killing me . i should count my blessings , embrace the fact that i now know whats wrong , and why i behave so erratic , but its not easy . the Prozac they have me on helps with the depression , but for some reason buttering toast makes me burst into tears . the manic episodes arent as much fun or frequent , and certain music makes me feel wild and a bit violent . i should have kept my mouth shut about the violent feelings , because now they want to feed me anti-psychotics . there is a bright side to the anti-psychotics though , my jerk boyfriend looked nervous when i told him . i think he is worried im going to snap and stab him over his constant bullshit behavior. i hope i find someone to talk to in here , and maybe i can give someone else who is struggling a shoulder to cry on when they need it .

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#138

Hi Elane,

What you are going through isn’t easy. There are a lot of us in this chat room who can attest to that. We are here for you.

I totally feel ya on the highs not being as fun. I used to love mine, until I finally associated them with a soon to follow depression. I’m atypical bipolar, so the swing would shift in the middle of everyday. It was truly awful. Fortunately most of that is suppressed by the lithium now.

Hope you can get your meds sorted out.

-Katy

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#139

Hi Elane,

I can most definitely relate to what you’re going through as most of the people here can. It took years of not knowing what was going on in my head and thinking I was crazy and all of that to finally figure out what to do about it. When I found out what it was, then there was the med roller coaster that we all know so well. I’ve been on so many, I don’t remember them all.

I do have a piece of advice for you though. One of the best things you can do is, instead of letting the doctor shop around for meds for you, shop around for a good doctor. I’ve had several doctors and I finally found one that is doing the right thing for me and actually listens to me and wants to know what’s going on with me instead of just taking out the prescription pad. Everybody’s different, but the miracle worker for me is Lamictal. I’m taking it in combination with an antidepressant and an antianxiety but it’s a mood stabilizer and it has worked wonders for those especially weepy moments. It might not be the right thing for you but it wouldn’t hurt to talk to your doc about it. I sure do wish you the best…and hang in there.

Heather

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#140

Hi I read your post in the bipolar forum, and i have some of the same issues as you do, but some not as serious as yours. but i have discovered that i thnk i am suffereing from anxiety attacks too! (i am 60, and through menopause), but my bipolar seems to be changing. i think that might be due to age also. i’m on neurontin and wellbutrin, but i haven’t gone to see my doctor for some time, as i have no insurance and so that limits me to whom i go to. i do go to a native clinic (i am part native american) so i get my medication; but the clinic doesn’t have a pdoc right now, just an md, and they usually aren’t knowledgeable about pmeds. do i don’t know for sure what to do with myself either.
but we also have something else in common, i too play the violin; haven’t for a while now, as i have carpal tunnel and it makes it difficult to play; but i also do bead work, and sometimes that makes my wrists hurt; but i do it any way. i also have fibromyalgia and that makes all my muscles hurt as i can’t take meds for it bkz i have a defunct kidney. any way, i read your post, and could relate to a lot that you are saying.
love,
bip

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#141

Hey everyone! im new to this site and so far I LOVE IT! I have been living with bipolar now for about 7 years. When i first was diagnosed they had me on medications galore. As I got older these medications kept getting higher and higher in dosage. i was soon at a point where i was sooo passive that litterally anyone could of done something and i probably wouldnt of cared. I am now off all my meds and learning to live with it on my own without the help of medications. So far i seem to be doing pretty well. it is hard for me to stay focused and get all the things i need to get done and not get freaked out with the stress of it. but i can say that i am doing alot more then when i was on the meds. I seem to seperate myself from everyone because i am so much different. i have a few close friends but i tend to keep myself in the dark. i love to socialize but i hate when people call me weird or different. it tends to trigger my depression. i love to drive around when i get upset. it helps me think about things and plus its an added bonus cuz the lakes and rivers here are beautiful!

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#142

HI I’m new here… as ya may have guessed. LOL I’ve been bipolar for a long time now, and I’m managing it with a new puppy a baby Chihuahua, Cannabis, and Lexapro. They all seem to do the trick. It’s amazing how a little pup can brighten your day. I hope to get to know more of you out there and we can figure out what helps us all the most! Hugs Debbie

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