Sometimes i cry for days straight, i dont get out of bed except to shower and use the bathroom.
I dont even eat.
I get so sad because of the way people look at me.
And that i go to the doctor and they say nothing wrong with me im healthy
And the dentist tell me i have good oral health and my breath still stinks. I’m disgusted by myself.
And i wonder why I’m cursed and what i did to deserve to be the way i am.
I cry till my head hurts and my eyes becomes really puffy like i havent slept in a month.
I want to die because i see that no one can do anything to improve the way that i am.
And being the way i am does not make me happy, i dont pass a day of pure happiness.
But last week i found hope.
I know whats wrong with me because of sites with info of tmau.
There is hope i may be able to improve.
I’m gonna try my best to be better and to understand what is wrong with me.
and now i can explain to people what is wrong with me.
There is always a reason to live.
I know you feel that if your unhappy then why live this miserable life.
But theres always a reason if you have hope and you have faith and you find some support.
Its been sad because people around me ignore me and i have no one to talk to about the way i am but i found people on this site like me and im so happy.
I cant wait to take the tmau test and start a new beginning.
And you should too, find out how to take the test, try your options even a little better is good i have an extreme case and even the little improvement will make me happy even if to maintain it i have to eat things i dont like because it will give me something more to look forward to and make me more comfortable to be myself.
My family thought i was crazy for a while till they finally smelled me i took every test imaginable and went to the physchologist its been 8 years years and i dont know how i made it through 1 and now i know i have tmau. and im so happy i never gave up before i found out. And so should you.