My grandfather died of lung cancer in my living room. Hospice brought in a bed, and we gave him a bell.
If stress triggers DD… My father, aunt, and the rest of my grandparents. They all died so close to another…
This was all while I was in a tech school, going to college, etc.
I lived with my folks through it… Tried to help them through it… Had months at a time that I rarely slept or ate.
Dropped from 235lbs to 190lbs in 3 months… First actual painful lumps appeared shortly after eating again…
I couldn’t get any help. Stupid Dr’s said it is an emotional thing- the physical pain was emotional pain.
B.S.
Anywho…
I think I’ve decided to seek out a pain management doctor. I realize now why this DD upsets me so… I can slow my heartbeat… I discovered I can hold my breath for almost 2 minutes… I can wiggle my ears independent of each other… Same thing with my nostrils, eyes, scalp, eyebrows, etc. Point is, I’m a control freak to my body… DD has it’s own agenda…
The pain management DVD I saw last night gave me terrific insight on how to control it (pain).
I slept 10 hours last night! I got up ONCE!!! Yay!
Meditation helps. Visialising helps.
I dare say they shrunk from it. They are back today, but much less tender/hard.
Yesterday I contacted a sheriff and began steps to get totally away from the toxicity of my mother. That also helps.
I hope I can return the strength you share with me.