HI Katie!!! So you went to the doctor and Im praying it went well, whatever you do don’t get discouraged just keep going. I want you to stop being so hard on youself and tell me the positive things about katie not all the negative. if you remeber a while ago I told you that to beat this you have to think positive and that means about yourself too, you make yourself out to be this terrible person but I think it’s not so true I think you are a GREAT person, ok you might have done some things your not proud of but who hasen’t, I have too but I know who I am and it’s not terrible and neither are you. I wan’t you to start talking about how great you are doing in school and the great things you do, do not tell me there aren’t any!!! You can kick this anxiety and have a great life but I won’t lie it takes time and you have to be willing to fight, we are all here for you through it and won’t let you fall. thank you for giving your real name my best friend growing up was named katie. Well I have to get my daughter off to school but I will check later to see how the doctor went. have a great day!!! love ya!!! Kim
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I sent a letter to childline and i havnt had a reply, and i think my mum kept it and read it because she seems to know what it says and i never got a reply what do i do?
How do i get on with my mum, step dad, who have no parenting skills, well not many! kinda! well my mum is ok but my step dad thinks he knwos best and everything he thinks is right, he is a controll freak and i hate him. HELP
katie x x x xthank you so much x x x
love katie x x x
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thanks so much, you are like my cyber mum. I can see why your kids love you!!!
I will try but it is hard to love yourself. Maybe after seeing this docter i will feel better and i will start to like myself. I knwo what has happened has happened, out of all the VILE AND TERRIBLE and i mean horrid things I have done I still need to go through life with that in my head and on my shoulders.
How can I learn to get along with my mum and step dad so the air in the house isnt uncomfertable?
I still cant believe my mum took the letter, she may not have but it does seem that way, she seems to know some information and I have had no reply, and apparently mum has been sending horrid texts to my dad. She is fighting a battle and at the same time loosing friends and loosing me. It is so unlike her. She wants more money I mean why cant she just be happy with what she has got?
thank you so much I am so glad I met you!
you are sooooo kind.
keep in touch , love ya katie x x x x
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thank you so much, i am not supposed to be on here mum banned me after the text but i am accessing it from school!
I have seen the docter and she was very usefull, now i know i can get on here from school i will write a proper reply tomorrow!, This isnt wrong is it?
lots of love katie x x x x
Hi Katie i am so glad that the doctor helped I was sure it would. i don't know if it is wrong i guess She has her reasons why she doesn't want you on here it seems she is afraid of mabey you saying something she doesn't want you to , but I can also understand why you want to be on the site, mabey you could explain to your mom how the site works and mabey let her go on with you and read some of the stories and how the people on here have anxiety just like you and it gives you hope that you will beat this. I would never tell you to disobey your mom but I don't want to discourage you from something that mabey lifts you up and helps you either, you just have to follow your heart and decide no matter what I will always be here for you and will continue to pray for you. I wish you the best of luck with the doctor and i want you to continue to believe in yourself and don't ever let anyone discourage you from being the best you can be. You are a remarkable young lady Katie who has alot inside that is begging to come out and when that time comes you will shine, just don't let bad things get in the way of the good. Love ya!!!!!!! KimHi
sorry I havnt replyed for a while! Even though it is wrong I will still go on here because it lifts me up a bit. I am so vile and I hate myself so much. I have been really down lately and mum told me off for that so I am not allowed computer, tv or phone well baisically everything I like in life! I was grumpy and had no respect but I dont think I deserve to have everything taken away. I was rude to my mum this morning. She dosent understand. I hate her and my stepdad. I want to live at my dads but because of my anxiety it stops me. The main thing I want sorted is my anxiety and fears, then the divorce situation and I also want to learn to move on and forget what I have done and I want to become a nice person but I am never nice. I want to controll my anger OOOHHH I HATE THIS! sometimes I just want to end my life but then I think about what it would be like if it got better. I sometimes want Jenny my dads partner to be my mum. Also I am really worried about an upcoming holiday I hate change and going on holiday and staying in places im not used to. Also what should I do at home as I have been banned from all the things I ushally do?
thank you so much you are like my cyber mum! lots of love and keep in touch katie x x x xx x x x x x x x xx x
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love katie x x x
HI Katie I am sorry to hear that your not feeling to good, You keep saying your a bad person but the person I know is nice so mabey you view yourself different then others see you. You know hate is a very strong word and you shouldn’t use it when you are talking about your Mom, You might be mad at her right now but i don’t believe you hate her. I think you are still very angry and hurt about the divorce and you are acting out, it’s ok to be angry we all get angry when we don’t understand why our lives take a wrong turn, but the main thing is that your parents love you no matter what, sometimes couples grow apart from each other but not from our children, also I know you feel like you a competing for your Mom now but you are not the love we share for our children is much different then for anyone. I think your Mom is trying to move on and I think she could really use your support, You need to be a kid and enjoy kid things I know having anxiety is hard I started having it at seven, i had a brother who would yell at me when I would have a attack, I think he thought I was faking for attention but I also had family members who would help me. Some people don’t understand what we go through everyday and it’s hard to explain it to them, but we get through day by day. I know what you mean about traveling i so much want to go on a plane but i can’t because of my anxiety i think I would freak out, i will find the nerve someday but until then I will just wait and pray. You be a good girl ok and I will talk to you soon. When do you see your Dr again???
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I guess you are right hate is a strong word. I dont mean it but I am mad at her.
TRUST ME when I say I am vile. I can be unbelieavbly mean. Honestly. I wounder if you can give me some advice ok I will write it in a list:
How can I mAnage my anger?
How can I not be so angry?
How can I be a nice, sweet, loving, patient person BECAUSE I AM NOT!?
How can I be smart and sporty?
How can I not be depressed?
How can I forget what I have done to people, with people eg boys and to myself?
How can I make my fears go away?
How can I stop my anxiety (do you have any tips?)
I know this is alot to ask! SorryBecause I want my life back so much, and im not getting anywhere. Help!
I am seeing the docter next Wednesday. I no in my head there is more to say but I cant think what it is!!!
Thank you so much I am such a mess, I cant be bothered to do anything, I skip lessons, I lie alot - also how can I not lie!
THANK YOU SO MUCH AND KEEP IN CONTACT LOTS OF LOVE KATIE X X X X XX
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Sorry also how can I be confident.
and how can I get on with everybody, and my family??
I AM SO SORRY TO LOAD ALL THIS ON YOU DONT REPLY IF YOU DONT WANT TO!
LOVE KATIE X X XX
Katie my dear girl you are taking on way too much at one time, you have to deal with one issue at a time. First of all the anger issue, you have to find out why you are so angry and admit that and deal with it before you can throw it out the door if you don’t it will just keep coming back, I am not always a patient person myself there are things that really annoy me and I find myself getting very mad but i have to get thoughts together and figure out why it makes me so mad and then decide the best way to deal with it. How do you deal with it, it has to be in your own way but anger and being mean is not going to solve anything, you have the right to say hey that makes me feel angry and I would appreciate it if you don’t say or do that. The fact that you have made some bad choices in your life is something we all go through, I made some bad choices in my life, I could of had a much easier life if i had done things differently and made wise choices but I didn’t so I have to deal with it, but I don’t hate myself because I know who I am inside and so do you and it does not make you a terrible person just because you made some bad choices you are only eleven years old you need to be helped with the choices you make. my daughter juanita is fifteen and I still help her make the choices she has to make, but in the end she knows that she has to deal with them. I really fel in my heart that if you can get some of these feelings of no self worth under control that you will start to feel better and better. i know your mom loves you and wants to help you, just mabey you need to let her know how. You are not terrible I don’t care what you have done leave it behind you and start today a new day of the rest of your life and fight Katie when you get that urge to do something bad put your foot down and say no im not going to be that old person who would have done that, I am a new person The biggest thing is to fight you say you are a fighter well fight for the good of you not the bad. Number one thing Katie pray, God loves you and he knows everything about you, and He is watching and waitng for you to see what he sees. I love ya girl, be good, fight for the good and pray!!! Kim