RE: Somedays we are all gung-ho to conquer the alien DD and other days our body chemistry overcomes our determination and we end up a weepy mess!
Oh don't I know it!!! I am so strong and then I crumble and cry my eyes out!! Thanks for putting that into words so well Sylvia... just reading that sentence made me feel better about my ups and downs (I feel an "I am not alone" feeling).
I’m sorry for my little rant…
I rarely talk about this… or think about it…
I just feel so helpless when I get like this.
I’ve always been called a wuss. Even my parents make fun of me for being sensitive.
I care about every single person I meet.
I care about being mistaken for making a comment my first post here.
I care about every single little thing that happens.
does anyone else have racing thoughts?
or so many thoughts constantly that they can’t just think?
I’m sincerely worried about how much of my depression and anxiety are DD related versus my life has always sucked related. and I just got out of the house of pain- my mother’s house.
I used to be able to multitask beautifully. Even able to ponder ‘life’s big questions’ while doing algebra homework, watching tv, writing that essay for language arts, and eating dinner.
I mean, that is all a gross understatement.
Now, I sometimes find it hard to remember what the heck I was saying at the beginning of the post I am typing right now.
I have too many issues that overlap, and have no idea how to start helping them.
I had klonopins… they helped, but I hated the squiggly feeling in my head caused by them… anyone else experienced this?
Kathieh…I want you to know that I think you are right. Of course the doctors know that depression is a chemical imbalance not just a situational reaction. We also have depression in our family genes as do most families. Some more than others of course. People in my family of the generation you mentioned could have benefited from the great drugs they have now for depression. As you so aptly pointed out the previous generation treated mental illnesses as something to be ashamed of and hidden. Hopefully, we now understand that our chemical prediposition combined sometimes with unusual stress cause an understandable and treatable depression. We see it in each other in our posts. Somedays we are all gung-ho to conquer the alien DD and other days our body chemistry overcomes our determination and we end up a weepy mess! The good thing about this site is that we see that we are certainly not unique. The majority of other human’s emotions reflect ours and therefore we are not alone! Also, we learn that as we try to reach out and help others it ends up making us feel better. One truth that has made its way into my gray head is that it is not who loves us that matters but who and how we can love.
To our young man in Florida…it is heart wrenching to read your posts. You have a poetic flair in your writing that makes us feel your emotions. No, there is nothing wrong with being sensitive. Most of us are. We post on Careplace because we care about others. It sounds like you have had some good advice from some of your doctors. You are too young to give up. I think it would help you to try and focus on others and find a way to help others. It might end up helping you. Perhaps you could work in the health field caring for some of the multitude of “women of a certain age” who live in Florida? Just a suggestion! Good luck…Grandma Sylvia
Hi Ben and ((((big hugs)))) to you. I feel for you.
I think maybe you are bi-polar? Racing thoughts and mood swings are bi-polar symtoms. Not that I am an expert 
But I think people get disabilty benefits easily for bi-polar disorder.
I don’t think there is anything wrong with being sensitive either… I am really sensitive and that is just the way I am. If someone has a problem with something that is part of my personality then they are the one with the problem.
Oh wow… I love you guys so much already.
I was so worried when I sent those posts…
I’m crying again, but happy tears.
Thank you for the hugs. Never thought a simple “you’ve been hugged”
message could feel so good.
I’ve been persecuted so much…
I love you all
=)
(((big hugs)))
You do sound like you might be bipolar BRossington. Having many family members who are I know what its like…Maybe you could see someone…My sister sought help and received it. Its a daily struggle but she was not turned down for disability. I on the other hand was turned down 5 times because I filed for Disability on DD alone. There is no precedent I guess for DD to be a disability. They agreed while I do have that disease it wasn’t disabling enough to warrant disability…Jack a—es, they should have one day of DD experience to help them change their minds…Just keep writing us we are like family here…
I know how you feel Ben (about this support group). I love everyone here and they have helped me so much – like BEYOND BELIEF!! I was really ALONE – BIG TIME ALONE! I would tell my husband, “I feel so alone” and he couldn’t understand… this support group changed that for me.
Hmmmm… about the DD and disabilty… I wonder which one of the symptoms of DD could be considered a disability (by the SS people). I know I could not hold down a job right now due to the pain and also the fatigue. I can’t walk or stand for long. I went to the grocery today and I am still in pain from that. I am sort of mad that the disability is denied for DD. That stinks.
I checked into that and there isn’t really any DD diagnoses that are being accepted as “diagnoses” They are accepting depressive disorder & generalized anxiety disorder (gad). I get to add hypertension to my list of problems. I went to a new doctor today. He is really willing to work with me. He is an ADDICTIONOLOGIST. Has anyone ever heard of one? He doesn’t prescribe any narcotic pain meds… I don’t use them so it doesn’t bother me. I was taking them, but they didn’t help anything. I dont see the need to pay for them if it doesn’t touch the pain.