Dissociation caused by anxiety

Anxiety
#1

I am a survivor of childhood to adulthood sexual abuse not to mention all the other abuses (emotional, psychological, physical, neglect) oh, and don't forget raped x2.

My anxiety has gotten so bad that I lose time.  I am not aware of my not-present state or when it happens.  I only am able to know when it happens when I am around people.  This is not good when I am at meetings.  Somehow I survive and no one knows the difference.  I don't know what's going on so I obviously they don't know either.

I have epilepsy and I know this is not a seizure.  These episodes terrify me.  I have tonic-clonic (grand mal) seizures where I become unconscious and other people know this and help me.  On the other hand this not-present no one see's a difference of behavior.

In real time I am not violent, suicidal, or wish harm to anyone.  In my not-present state I have no idea how I will behave.  This is what scares the shit out of me...

I am having trouble finding a counselor which specializes in dissociation.  I also have attitude from professionals which do not believe this phenomena...so what can I expect?

Any advice or tips anyone care to share?

peace,                                                                                                                 

 Marianne

 

 

 

 

#2

Wow Marianne, I have not heard of this before associated with anxiety...So I can not relate or really even offer any help. I am sure there are others out there with this condition, but it may be s sympton of post tramatic stress disorder. I wonder if you looked for a counselor or a doctor that deals with that maybe you will have some better luck at getting some help.

I will keep you in my prayers and pray someone sees your post and has more info for you! <3

Hugs, Kim

#3

my disscociation was caused by my ptsd.  i do this most often on a daily basis.  The only thing that has helped it is being hypnotized, and since i haven’t gone to my therapist lately, i am having more and more boughts with it.  good luck in finding a therapist that specializes in this sort of hypnotism if that is what you choose to do.  It took me almost 2 years to find mine.