Hi, Keri–
Yup, it’s hard to be in so much pain and not eating right and getting sick and not feel exhausted. When your body is under attack it’s tiring.
My pain interferes with my sleep (since sleep issues were mentioned) and I’ve found using a couple mg of sublingual melatonin (synthetic/pharmaceutical grade, not bovine) which is natural (check w/your doc first, though) helps me to get through most nights. I often need a dose of pain meds to get my body calmed down enough to just relax my brain, but it’s been very helpful. GNC has the best one I’ve found and it’s super-cheap. The sublingual has worked better than the oral.
It’s also exhausting to fight with docs and ERs and stuff-- it wears me out just trying to get treated and understood half the time. Argh!
Also, you’re not failing at anything by being sick-- and you’ve got to do what helps you to keep your energy up, not lose it. Depending on the age of your kids, try explaining to them honestly but simply, what’s wrong and why you can’t join them in certain things. Kids usually deal better if they can understand what’s going on. They’re really resilient.
My fingers are crossed for you–
Hugs,
Lisa