In the crossfire

Narcissistic personality disorder
#21

Having calmed down a little bit I have to say that I HATE when these people
pop up like something on a wire and treat me as though it is some kind of
crime for me to be human, vulnerable and actually HARMED by the crap that
Sam and his little friends have made such a vocation of throwing at me.

I am not under some special obligation to either be Superhuman, or at least
fake it. The same “ladylupine” said this on Christmas Eve:
“I think have some big macho men around when I move out will be easiest
because he wont put up a fight but im worried if he might stalk me
afterwards.”

I wonder what kind of shape she thinks she would be in after 9 years of what
I have been through?

Yet she treats me as if I am under some obligation to just go on absorbing
all the harm and the head games like some kind of machine until it gets too
much for me, at which point I’d better just go and hang myself in the barn
quietly without disturbing anybody’s illusions by saying anything about it.

Dehumanising me, or anyone that way is just a spiteful, childish variation
on kicking someone because they are down.

GD

----- Original Message -----
From: “blitzen” npd-cpt7422@lists.careplace.com
To: blitzen@utvinternet.com
Sent: Tuesday, January 15, 2008 12:59 AM
Subject: Re: [npd] In the crossfire…

#22

If it makes you feel better to think I’m a psychopath than admit I’m just a normal person who doesn’t like you, so be it. Thats what you accuse everybody else of doing. You don’t know why you were suspended? Its the same reason you were suspended from Wikipedia and everywhere else. You do all this horrible crap and then you make the rounds and accuse other people of your own actions so you can feel better about yourself. Accusing people of sockpuppetry, being at fault for their own problems and not getting over it, twisting words, manipulating people, orhcestrating smear campaigns, and playing with their heads. You completely alienate yourself until you’re nothing but a nusance and then whine how nobody understands you or believes you and the world has abandoned you without owning up to the real problem. All your delusions are an excuse to treat the world like shit and justify it to yourself. You can’t live without the drama or you fall apart. Go see a doctor and get some pills or pick up the phone and call a suicide hotline. Do yourself a favor and let people care for a while and stop acting like a baby. I doubt you’ll find pity from a group of people you kicked when they were down.

#23

Gee LadyLupine, how nice to know you are another sockpuppet, or should I say phoney scam. Some of you must have the most pathetically boring lives that you have to create phony personas to get attention from people on these boards.

This board is incredible.

Earl and Bubba are quietly sitting in a boat fishing, chewing and drinking beer when suddenly Bubba says, ‘I think I’m gonna divorce my wife - she ain’t spoke to me in over 2 months.’

Earl spits, sips his beer and says, 'Better think it over - - - - -

women like that are hard to find.’

Trying to figure out why I have not been suspended yet if there is in fact, some kind of rational rule to it and obviously there is not.
Okay my joke for the day

#24

This is EXACTLY the kind of Gaslighting I have spent 9 years surrounded by,
presented by fictional “normal” people.

Fact:
This group, like any other related to Sam Vaknin (who encourages it to “make
up the numbers”), is genuinely riddled with sockpuppetry

Fact:
I never got suspended from anywhere online, without Sam Vaknin, or someone
related to him, telling a shedload of lies first, and usually persuading a
few “likeminded souls” to join in. (I actually never got banned or suspended
from anywhere Sam Vaknin and his friends don’t know about at all. In fact I
am very well respected in all the places they cannot find me) Now, I figure,
if you have to lie about me, a lot, to get me suspended, then I mustn’t be
doing much wrong.

Fact:
I have Asperger syndrome. I had a psychopathic mother, and training in PR, I
certainly CAN manipulate, but as it takes hours of planning to do just a
very little, and even longer to recover, AND makes me feel like shit
afterwards I can only do so in a very sparing and limited way that is
unlikely to change anybody’s lifestyle.

Fact:
I never ran a “smear campaign” in my life. I have the kind of conscience
that tortures me if I tell a white lie, let alone a derogatory one.
Fact:
Not believing people when they are lying is not usually regarded as
"delusional"

Fact:
I hate drama, it takes me days to recover from it, which is why I would like
Sam, and his nasty minions to STOP creating it and stay out of my life.

Fact:
Your posting above was the result of careful consideration of everything
that has happened to me over the past few days (nothing good on TV, even I
don’t think i am that interesting), and everything I have said, and was
specifically targeted at doing me as much damage as you possibly could, and
ideally driving me over the edge. Suicide? Nah…I doubt id you want
that…it would spoil your fun, wouldn’t it?

I would say that you BEING a psycho is probably behind my thinking.

GD

----- Original Message -----
From: “ladylupine” npd-cpt7422@lists.careplace.com
To: blitzen@utvinternet.com
Sent: Tuesday, January 15, 2008 3:30 AM
Subject: Re: [npd] In the crossfire…