I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 years ago. I’ve been hospitalized several times and have been on pretty much all anti-depres. anti-psy, mood stablizers, and benzos. The past eight months I’ve been taking Welbutrin, Elvil, and valium. They worked for awhile but now I feel I’m slipping again. I cut myself 3 times within a few minutes and I felt better. I needed stiches but wouldn’t go because I was afraid I would be hospitalized again. I have 3 children that have no clue whats going on and its very hard to hide and anxiety sits in. I cant be hospitalized, I have no support for me or my kids. I have an appointment with my family doctor that I’ve seen since I was a baby. I want to be truthful with him but I’m affraid of what he might do. I need some help! Any suggestions?
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have you found the diversion helps?
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Thank you, However I have tried all of the diversion techniques, and when I started I was 12 and I only scratched then. I still see my docs for all the issues in my life and keep on going and hope that it dosnt happen today.
I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and cutting is one of the major symptoms that helps define the disorder... hope that helps. Do some research on Dialectical Behavioral Thereapy. It's a treatment for BPD. I'm signed up to begin in May. I'll let you know how it is going.
As others have repeated...please stop cutting. It is dangerous! Not to mention the scars it leaves. I understand why you do it though, so I'm not judging you :) Just imploring you to try different methods of coping.
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Hi everyone. I know i don’t post on here hardly at all but i too cut myself. It only started out as scratches but now it gets deep and leaves scars. I too have children so i found ways to hide it from my kids and husband. I have never told anyone that i do this. But i have found that when i am hurting i cut because i can visually see the cut and why it hurts. I cant always see why i am hurting emotionally but the way i deal with it is to have physical pain. It is hard to explain but i am sure some can understand what i mean. As far as diversions goes it is just that. A diversion. It does not solve the problem only diverts it which usually does not work anyhow.
I cut, and for a long time didnt understand what or why I was doing it and now 15 years later I still do it and I dont do it to end life I do it to cope with life for me it allows me to justify any pain that I feel I also have children so concealment is an issue. Out of my own experience the family doc is usualy not prepaired to help however they can usualy refer to someone who is more then educated on all the issues you need help with. As far ast if it is related to the bipolar I dont know I do not have bipolar disorder and I cut. Hope that this helps some how. I hope that you find the help you need.
My therepist has been great in helping me with my cutting when I have my bad times, and thank god the are not as frequent as they use to be what I have learned as I get more control over my life I have more control over the other stuff and the cutting gets better I havent cut since June 06 and that is a good sign that shows me that I have more control I feel better.
I will have to say that m kids have never seen my cuts and have never seen me do it but that dont mean that is dose not effect them. I never want them to go what I go through I want them to stay as happy as they are.
I’m bp2 and i used to cut. I hid it from everybody. Once it got out in the open and my husband, therapist, pdoc knew, it almost took the scariness out of it. I remember my therapist touching my razors and i was like oh don’t touch them you might get hurt. I was worried about her not me. But looking at them took the fear out of the topic of cuttingl.I didn’t want to cut as much anymore. I did it to deal with the emotional pain i was dealing with. Somehow it eased the pain. My therapist had me put a rubber band around my wrist and snap it when i felt like cutting. Some people think this isn’t a good idea bcs it’s just another way of causing yourself pain but for me it wasn’t a lasting pain and it helped me quit cutting so much. I haven’t cut in several years now.
Daisy,your story sounds so much like mine . I have one thing so say first Please dont cut yourself. Idont know how common it is. I hsve felt like , but is dont except once.
hang in there. Things will get better.
Hi everyone. I know i don’t post on here hardly at all but i too cut myself. It only started out as scratches but now it gets deep and leaves scars. I too have children so i found ways to hide it from my kids and husband. I have never told anyone that i do this. But i have found that when i am hurting i cut because i can visually see the cut and why it hurts. I cant always see why i am hurting emotionally but the way i deal with it is to have physical pain. It is hard to explain but i am sure some can understand what i mean. As far as diversions goes it is just that. A diversion. It does not solve the problem only diverts it which usually does not work anyhow.
i would go with the borderline personality disorder diagnosis as indicative of cutting but you are not diagnosed with that so maybe the diagnosis doesn’t really matter. the important thing is that you get help. your family doctor should be able to lead you in the right direction. hopefully he is well educated on the subject. either way, you have to stop cutting for your self. because you matter and for your children who need their mother to be healthy. this comes from someone who is not totally healthy herself but working on it so take what you like and leave the rest. just get help. your worth it.