MrsBarb's Last 4 months of 2007

Hi to all my Friends and fellow Careplace supporters, I want to fill you all in with what has been happening in my home and life. So I will start with saying THANK YOU ALL for the hugs and best wishes.

Starting in Sept. of this year: my husband had to have major surgery on his colon, he was told he had Diverticulitis, one being the size of a Softball, yes large, plus alot of small ones removed. His stay was 5 days but should of been 5-10 days in patient.

Well the nurses told him that he could come home, since his wife could take care of him “yeah right” not knowing how sick I am they did let him come home. Well this is when everything seemed to go down hill for US.

I got very sick with CP pain, and CL pain with lots of blood loss. Then I have been seeing a Oncologist for what they thought was Cancer, Leukmia or bone, so I went through a bone marrow and bone biobsy plus a full body scan looking for cancer, god bless they came back negative, then the end of Sept.

I was told I have Autoimmune disease, blood disorder, and Very low platelet counts, for those of you who are not aware what the platletes do they help clot your blood, and fight infections. So to say normal plateletes are done in numbers Normal 140,000 to 450,000, mine were only 60,000 in the beginning, dropping quickly to 20,000 “Danger Zone” so I was to go have a blood transfusion called IVIG treatments for 5 straight days. I made it through all of that, coming out with platelet count of 105,000 still low but much much better.

One week later went for Labs and I dropped again to 70,000 so I went every week for Labs, and come the first of Oct. my level dropped to 17,000 so I was back in for another Blood Transfusion the regular blood platelet transfusion. Of course I got 10 units and felt so much better, well a month later they were on the fall again, so in I went for another transfusion, costing around $30,000 per transfusion "thanks for ins. they have paid almost all of it!

So come the middle of Oct. we got bad news again, we had lost an Aunt to Leukmia this in turn made my whole family worried about my test. the the end of Oct. we lost an Uncle to colon cancer so that was a scary thing for my husband. Take a breath this is only the beginning of our life starting in Sept. keep in mind. Nov. deaths in the family were becoming a every two week thing, buried 6 relatives, then found out that my mother has breast cancer and went through 2 surgeries in less then two weeks.

She is cancer free for now, and will start treatment after she is healed up in 3 spots from the surgeries! To say the least this took it’s toll on me, I become very sick where I should have went to ER, but refuse I feel I can do the same thing here at home as they can do there, I didn’t have time as my mother needed me despritely and I wasn’t turning my back or health on her she needed me.

Here we are in Nov. and have another death in the family “husband side again” so we get through that then there is Thanksgiving well I couldn’t eat as my stomach could not handle anymore depressing news. I have ran my mother to all of here appts. as my siblings think I don’t work so I can do it ALL. I finally talk to my Aunt and she said something to them about pitching in and to get off the pot and help me, well that lasted about 2 weeks of course I was sick again and could not do it suprise huh!

Ok now Dec. my mothers doctor found another spot on her breast and yes cancer is back, so we get through this one again and get new appts. for her with the Radiology and Oncology doctors and run her to all of those appts. yes ME, and ended up down and very sick this time, I was so upset because my husbands x-mas party was the next day and it was his 20th year Annv. nope didn’t get to go.

The following weekend was our Family x-mas gathering and seems no one can get along, I finally said we see each other once maybe twice in a year do you think we could pulled together for one time??? I also told them I am Still very sick and don’t take days for granted or even hours, so if they want to think about me not being around maybe next year, then poor Barbie, whatever I don’t want that feeling of feeling sorry for me so told them all and left.

Then the next weekend only a few of my brothers and sister talk to my mother past issues, get together for x-mas and finally it was so nice to feel comfortable and relaxed, my family has a alcohol problem and my oldest brother is looking quite wore out, so he talk to me about all my issues and I just found out he is staying with my sister to get off of the booze and get help. “his wife is syco” and needs to be instatuted that won’t happen!

but maybe he can get away from her and get on the wagon again. Lets Pray he Does!!! anyway back to Dec. now we are at the end of the month thinking this year might go out quite, not we got a call the 22nd and Jr.s (husband) uncle went off the road into a ditch, had a major stroke took him to the Hosp. where he only made it one week, so being our favorite Uncle we had yet one more funeral to attend! It is now Dec. 30th and I got the Flu from somewhere and having flare ups with my Cp/Cl I really hope that this new year brings calm happy times our way lord knows we need that so very badly…I will end my letter to you all, by saying I am so Sorry for not being there for all of you in your times of need…

I have tried to be a good friend and check in from time to time, but as you all read this maybe you all can understand, so as I close I hope you all have a very very Happy New Year bring us all Good Health and more Pain free days/nights.

In the New Year I will be on checking in regularly assuming all is going to be better with the New Year…I want to Send out Lots of Thank Yous for all the hugs and prayers and Support…I want to send you all my love and prayers for more healthy day and nights this is to All on Careplace regardless of what disease WE have. I hope this new year will bring more people/Friends to careplace and that WE don’t forget to send thoughts, prayers and support to all of our Friends.

With Love Always, MrsBarb, AKA-Barb :wink:

Oh my Mrs Barb, you have had about enough, i always think we need nothing else with this disease, but somehow more and more just keeps finding us ! I still say we area very STRONG group of people as somehow we keep going, i can totally understand how you feel about needing some help sometimes, i come from a large family and i am the baby, i am also the one that somehow keeps it going and the family together, i have my 78 yr old mother living with us and luckily she is pretty good, but when she needs something it is my deal ! nobody has the time opr their jobs are so important (they think) that they cannot take off! i always say this just makes me a stronger person to be able to juggle CP and everything else ! i just want you to know it is good for you to vent and let us know what is going on in your life so you do not go on overload too bad ! i will pray for you and hope you can have a pain free evening, it really is bad to get the flu on top of CP, make sure you get plenty of rest liquids and vit c and b vitamins are also important to our bodies ! hang in there lady and i will talk to you later !

Julie

Oh My! Mrs. Barb,

I had no idea all these things were happening to you. Me being a newbie(I joined mid Nov) I saw your posts from time to time. I am so sorry for all the loss you have had to deal with. One is hard enough, let alone 6+. Bless you and your husband! Just know you and all the people here are in my prayers. I have yet to be diagnosed with CP, at this point it is still “acute recurrent pancreatitis” even though I haven’t had a pain free day in 2 months. I am so glad I have found this place and I feel so welcome, like I have always been here. Take care and remember I do think of you (and all careplace CP members) everyday. Happy New Year 2008, I pray for you a pain free year!! emotionally and physically!

Keri

Oh Mrs. Barb,
I had no idea that you had gone through so much lately. You are in my thoughts and my prayers! Keep your chin up Girl!! I know that going through all that can be very stressful and get you to start worrying and therefore brings on pancreatitis flareups, etc; I can relate, when it comes to having family members pass away one right after the other. That happened on my mothers’ side of the family in 2001. Mom passed away, then her younger sister 2 weeks later, then her 2 brothers. And this was all from Nov. /Dec. I’m sending you many Hugs, and Love- Truffles

Barb,

I just read your post. Good Grief. You have been through the mill. I will be praying for relief for you. For God’s mercy to continue to rain down on you To help you and your family to heal physically, emotionally and spiritually. You are one strong lady to have endured all that has happened. I know that stress can be a factor in pancreatitis. But I have to say that I admire your ability to hang in there and do all that you have had to do. Continue to lean on God for your strength. He will provide. The people on this site will always hold you up. Keep us informed so we know how to pray for you.

Keep the Faith and God Bless,

Vonnie

Thank you so very very much, I wanted to get this post out last month, but it just seemed to get worse everyday or every week which ever came first…Then today I wake up still in so much pain, my dog (lady girl) had a stroke right in front of me and we called the Vet. and had to put her down, yes she was going to 14 this next year that makes her 94 yrs. in dog years, but oh my how hard it was, but we didn’t want her suffering either! I have been crying all day long, can’t sleep can’t eat, can’t even function!!! I have take so many meds. you would think I’d be out like a light, but I keep hearing her…I guess it is kinda like loosing a family member, but so much worse when you are so close to your animals they seem like your kids! Ok enough rambling. I hope that others here on CP get the chance to read this as well as I am way over tired and can’t put another post out tonight. I will tell you I am soooooooo happy to see this year end, and pray for a much better year all the way around. Ok hon again thank you so very much for all your love and support, I look forward to chatting with you more…

Happy New Year to You, Hope you have a pain free evening/morning and I am sending you big hugs and Love,
Mrs Barb aka-Barb

Thank You so much Vonnie, it has been such a stressful YEAR for me and my family, I just hope this year ends soon, 20 mins. left shuuuuuueeeeeee. I thought being the last day of the year nothing would go bad today, but NOPE woke up to my 14 year old dog (lady girl) having a stroke, so we ended up having to put her down, and I haven’t stopped crying yet that was at 11:14am almost 12 hours later…I am feeling so very very sick and tired so I will check back tomorrow and chat a little longer…Big Hugs to You, and Prayers to all…

With Love, Barb

Oh Mrs. Barb,

It’s when you are thinking we are going to put all the things behind us and start a new year, you have to lose your dog of 14yrs. I know how hard it is to lose a pet which becomes like a family member and it feels like an important member of the family has gone from our lives. I’m so sorry, dear. I can understand your crying, as I said, don’t hold it back and keep inside all the feelings. Whatever you remember about your experiences with your lovely pet keep in your happy memories. It happened all of a sudden I know it’s going to take some time to accept that it is not there every minute which used to run around the house with you making you smile when you are sad. They feel everything and when family is not doing well they too get very quiet or sometimes they try to divert your mind with their mischief.

Keep taking the pain medications for the pain and let it out all the sorrow and suffering. This is kind of good our minds and bodies kind of deal with the sadness by letting out all the feelings by crying. Then after some time you slowly start feeling better. It’s the defensive mechanism of our body to protect from all the sad feelings.

*Wholeheartedly I wish that this NEW YEAR DEFINITELY BRINGS PEACE, HAPPINESS AND HEALTH TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.

Please take good care of yourself Mrs. Barb. I know you don’t like to go to hospitals and I hope this will resolve without going to hospital! It’s equally sad thing for both of you. So, right now you both need to support each other. You should remember your husband is also having hard time with his health problems. So, try to give each other moral support and help each other to get through this tough time!* *Will you please let us know if there is anything we can do for you? We are all here for you to listen and if you want a shoulder to cry you’ll be surprised how many people will come forward to do that for you.You are a wonderful person and recently it’s been so hard for you, I can totally understand what you are going through. Please remember the CP pain can get aggravated with the lot of stress. Our body can take only so much stress if it is out of control it starts acting out and can end up with severe attacks. We don’t want that to happen especially when you don’t like to go to hospital. So, you have to pull yourself together after a day or two and look at your husband and support each other. You both are in this together and you need to understand each other’s pain and also how important to take care of each other.

I love you and remember I’m not far away and can send messages whenever you want. You can even call me whenever you feel like talking, my dear friend.

*Lots of love and hugs,
Durga.

Mrs. Barb,

When my dear friend died last year on Jan 6, it was so devastating. Even to this day I still shed tears every now and ten for my wonder boy “Arthur,” an 11 pound toy poodle who was at my side from the beginning of the worst of my illness until his own death due to renal failure that was expected to happe as we were warned a year ahead of time by our vet. I still sense him around me and miss him so much. I do not decry anyone’s mourning for the loss of a devoted and loving pet. Where can one get more unconditional love and friendship in one’s life. I shared everything with Arthur and, now, I share Arthur and everything with our new friend and companion, Dante, a toy poodle who will not outgrow his designation. Life just moves on for all of us. No loss is any less than another as it is felt through the human heart. All life “counts.” (No, I am not “pro life”). All life that we let into our own is special and has its own special rewards, fulfillment and deep growth.

Love you all,
Anyse

Thank You so very much durga,

I will take your advise and if my pain continues I will go to the doctor…Give you and all here on Careplace an update later on in the week…You always have the right words durga your the greatest! Woke up this am and was glad to see 2007 gone, I pray I don’t have another year like this last one! I hope you had a Very Happy New Year! Oh before I forget Thank YOU for the Christmas Card just got it in yesterdays mail, you made me laugh :slight_smile: I live in Lincoln, Nebraska, you had Lincoln, Nevada-It did get to me thank goodness it wasn’t returned. Again that just made me laugh is all so wanted you to know that…So change my address to: 5439 West Walker Ave. Lincoln, Nebraska 68524 oh not the address just Town and City-LOL Ok hon it’s getting late so i should be heading in, but I do pray that you are feeling better today/this evening…Love you too…

Big Hugs and Prayer to you,
With Love, Barb :slight_smile:

Hi Anyse,

Happy New Year to you! I woke up crying again, so your email has really helped this evening, Thank You, I just can’t imagine this home without her! I am sorry for your loss as well, your so right they are the ones we share everything with! I did the same thing…We do have OUR boxer brook, she is 6-7years she is in her kennel right now as she was very naughty! she pounces on the neighbors fence chainlink and cuts her self all the time, don’t like the male dog over there he is always aggressive to me, and she thinks she is protecting me go figure. Anyway she cut her toenail/tore it and I was doctoring it up when she decided to snap at me, won’t have that, i could bleed to death with my low platelets and all…Ok hon I am so very tired, But really wanted to say Thank You for the email…

Sending my prayers and hugs your way…
With Love, Barb :slight_smile:

Dear Barb: Wow. What a lot to deal with. You must have incredible strength to make it through all of this. You are a hero to all of us who have CP, but who don’t have even half of what you have to deal with. I hope 2008 is a much, much, much better year for you and your family. Take care of yourself whenever you have a moment. You deserve a break. Best wishes and prayers for a better tomorrow. Ellen

Just a quick note to say Thank You so very much for the note, it means alot to me just to know that everyone here on Careplace is so supportive! I lost my 14yr old Brittney New Years Eve, and that is sooooooooooo hard, my best friend has passed, and now I think depression has set in!!! I am so very happy that 2007 is Over, I don’t ever want a year like that Again!!! I just hope now that it is gone, I will start feeling better and can start preparing for my Specialist appt. in Omaha. Feb. 25th, 2008, and hope he can do these test that my PHD is asking for and I will start feeling somewhat better+++++++ Ok thank you again for the email/post. I hope you have a pain free evening and day tomorrow…

Sending you big hugs and prayers,
With Love, Mrs Barb/aka Barb :slight_smile:

Dear Barb: I didn’t realize that your dog was a Brittney. We have two Brittneys. My husband is a pheasant hunter so they are bird dogs, but they are also pets and are real members of our family. Our youngest puppy, Katie, a year and a half old Brittney always cuddles with me when I am in bed or on the sofa in pain. She seems to know that it helps me to have her near. My husband will be a mess when our older dog goes. She is ten and I dread the day she gets sick. I have children from my first marriage, but he never had children and Megs is like a child to him. So I understand everything you must have gone through. Hope things are better. Thinking of you. Ellen

Many more hugs, Barb-- I’m hoping things will turn around for you and everyone still having a hard time (me included, if I can add that?)!!!

Any loss is big, but especially when you need the comfort the most. I do hope so much that you’re doing okay and that you and your family are finding something good to stay focused on. It can be so hard when you’re in the middle of it and things keep happening.

I have always believed that things do happen for a reason, and that there also is a reason that only some of us on this planet get challenged more than others with devastating injury and illness and losses. It can and does make us stronger, though-- and I do know that you’ll get through this time in your life, as well. I like to take each “bad” thing and do something “good” with it to help someone down the line: It’s the pay-it-forward thing. It helps to feel good about even the ‘bad’ stuff.

Love to you and all here–
Thinking about you all the time,

Lisa

Thank you so much Lisa!!! just popped in to check on a couple of post, i got my cortizone shot today and Ouch! but it will be better in a couple of days. I sent you a post about SS and asked you for some help and answers hope that was ok…

Big hugs and Love to You, Barb, hope your feeling better :slight_smile:

Thank You so much EllenC,

I had two dogs my lady girl which was my husbands hunting dog too, plus we have a boxer named Brook, she is still very much lost she has been looking for Lady girl everywhere! It still makes me sooooooooo sad! Lady was my dog, but would let my husband out the door to go pheasant hunting without her-LOL He just stopped taking her about 2 years ago, when she was limping around and having seizures, one stroke was just to much…Ok better sign off for now, but i want to send you lots of love and hugs, with a pain free day/evening…Thanks a bunch!

Mrs Barb aka/Barb :slight_smile:

Hi Barb: I laughed when you talked about letting Lady go hunting with your husband. My baby Kate loves to go hunting even though she is very small for a Brit (only 24 lbs.) and has to jump like a rabbit to get over the brush to find the scent of a pheasant. My husband enjoys watching her more than he does the hunting! I’m sure your husband misses the chance to go hunting with Lady. Take care and have a pain free day. Ellen

Hi EllenC,

that is so very funny! What to hear another one, our boxer has learned to point from Lady girl and she loves to go in the back yard and chase those darn birds when ever she can, I say to her Boxers are not to be hunters, what are you doing, gotta laugh at her sometimes. She is really having a hard time with Lady girl being gone :frowning: but today I went and picked up Lady girls ashes and it was like she knew she was in that box, I put it up high cause I don’t want her to get the scent if there is any??? first time for me to go through this who knows…Ok hope your having a pain free evening and also a Big Thanks for the Laugh tonight…Oh one more thing I went to the doctor monday and he put me on 1000mg. of antibiotic for a staff (can’t spell :frowning: infection in my lump nodes so to say the least it is making me feel pretty ucky, hopefully this will pass soon, gotta be on them for a darn MONTH…

Ok love and big hugs to YOU,
Love ya, Barb :slight_smile:

Barb: Thanks for sharing the story about the Boxer that learned to point. Here’s my similar story, but it’s not as nice as yours. We also have a very big, very lazy Chocolate Lab. He is not a pointing lab, but after being around the new Brit puppy he sometimes points. The sad (sick) thing is that when they are in the back yard the main thing they point is each other’s poop. We’ve got to pooper scoop all the time or they spend all day out there pointing poop!!! Hope this gives you a good laugh. I know your story about your Boxer put a smile on my face. I hope the antibiotics help with your staph infection. Hope it isn’t one of those MRSA infections that are all over the news these days. It makes me afraid to go back to IU Med Center for another ERCP in March. Take care and hope you have a pain free day. Ellen