My relationship with N has turned into one big game starting last summer. We have been “together” on and off for five years. He has dumped me many times for other women and somehow we get back together. He is a mean, cruel and vicious “person” … He harasses me when we are apart, which I don’t understand at all, because he wanted to be apart. That was obvious to me.
He became threatening in subtle ways, using canes and referencing me in the same breath by saying "how long have we been walking here? In other words “saying I will hurt you”. I knew what he meant. I fear him. I loathe him. I told him that I thought he wanted me to hate him, but that I never would. Only I really do. He has threatened me before, and recently. I wonder how his current girlfriend, who happens to be 25 years younger than him, would feel if she knew how he treated me??? Meanwhile, she is being treated like a queen, getting roses from him every couple of weeks. What else could a 48 year old “man” want than someone young and fresh?
I am 40 years old. He looks for me on the internet, and sends me messages thru my ads, no good intentions intended. I don’t even place a picture on the site and he still knows it’s me. In all honesty, this has been the nightmare of a lifetime.