Professionals driving me crazy

Bipolar
#1

today i went to see a triage nurse who apparently was going to assess me into which pidgeon hole i fitted.

my doctor had been treating me for bi polar and seemed to understand how i felt but not this whizz kid  who promptly asked me why was i there and what did i want from this mental health place i was having my interview in.this completly threw me and i didn't know how to answer him.

after i had finished trying to explain the situation to him high and low moods swings,flipping where i can smash a room up to emotional moods where i just want to cry for no reason really.

self harm even once doing it in front of my partner which i have little recollection of but i was having a episode of very low mood.

seeing things and hearing things aswell.

he just said i hadn't a mental health problem but a personality problem and i didn't need medication.but he would refer me to another nurse who deals in personality problems.

i was close to tears as i walked out it was like why the hell wasn't he listening to me.

i feel  any support i had from my partner is dwindling i think she is getting fed up with me and my mental problems as i wasn't like this when we met.

when i was trying to talk about how i felt tonight she told me to shut up as she didn't want to hear about it all day everyday,which to me isn't true.

#2

Hi snuggli,

Wow you've really gone through some rough times lately haven't you? I am so sorry for that. It must be incredibly frusterating being bounced around from one health proffessional to another. I pray that things start to make sence to you. As for your partner, the one thing I have definately learned throughout the years (especially recently) is bipolar is not just one person's issue. It takes both people in a relationship to make things work. Both people are equally responsible. I just hope that soon she will realize that there is no "fix". However there are tools that both of you can learn together. I am seeing a therapist to not only vent to, but also to help me figure out better ways of dealing with my husband so that I can help rather than hinder. Maybe that would be helpful to her? If she just sees it as "your" problem, well you both could have a rocky road ahead of you. Take care and good luck.

#3

Hi Snuggly.

The treatment you have been given is absolutely appalling,i have been there done that,hence the reason i am dreading my initial psychiatrists appointment.

Your partner needs to support you at all times,not just because you have a mental health problem,i don't know what i would do without my husbands support.

I know we can drive our partners crazy but thay have to understand we are ill and cannnot make ourselves well overninght.

Can you go to another healthcare provider for treatment,i would report the triage nurse for their behaviour.

Hang in there,there are people who understand and are rooting for you.

 

Fionax 

#4

I have had the same thoughts about my therapist. She is in the same group as my pdoc. The first day I was there she told me that everything I discuss is between her and I, and she doesn't share with the pdoc or anyone - unless I am suicidal or want to cause harm to others. She lied. When I'd visit my pdoc, he'd mention her talking to him about my progress, etc. When you can't even trust your therapist, who can you trust? She did the same thing as your nurse - asking me why I was there and what exactly did I want to get out of therapy. Well, crap, why do you think I come to therapy. I've never been to a therapist and didn't really know what to expect! She makes me feel like a crazy low-life who should just make the *choice* to be happy and do the things I once enjoyed. She's so fired.

I'm sorry you aren't getting the support you so deserve with your partner. I know that feeling, too. When I first married Fred, I was somewhat happy, working and usually manic/happy all the time. Since then I have gone through three deaths that sent me to the black hole. I ended up quitting my full time job and worked part for almost 2 years, then just never went back one day. He couldn't understand why I just went to hell and wasn't the same as when he married me. He acted like your partner and got to where he just didn't want to hear it anymore - like I could change if I wanted to. It began to sound like my miserable childhood days. Finally I went so *low* that I wanted to die. It was then he took notice and realized I was dead serious. He's been more supportive after telling him just exactly how back I felt. The pdoc adjusted my meds and finally got me stablized to the point of wanting to go outside and get out and do some things. We get along much better now. Sometimes it just takes a pushing to the edge for people to realize how down we can get. Not that we do it on purpose - that we can't control our moods and thoughts.

I hope things change for you. Perhaps you, too, need some meds adjusting?

#5

thanks all for your support .my other half seems to be wanting  to really get away from me now she is going to join a aerobics class at the care home where she works i wasn't even asked just kinda told she was going and that was it.i don't mind she don't need my permission but it's the way she said"i'm going and your not stopping me" i mean i had said it was a good idea.although i did kinda ask why she wanted to go when we had brought a home gym for her things she wanted to do pilates etc but she never uses them atall so i just couldn't work out(no pun intended) why now she wanted to do aerobics.and why she was so defiant in the way she said she was going etc.

but it just seems since all my ill health she has been finding different reasons as to not  spend quality time with me ,yes we sit and watch tv for about 3 hours before she goes to work(night shift) but we never seem to do anything or go anywhere.i am stuck in the house all the time unless i go with my other half shopping etc it seems she just wants to spend any free time she got else where and i'm afraid it don't help when your feeling like i do isolated and alone and yes i guess self pitying so and so.but i feel like she is running away from all these problems i have and i'm having to deal with them on my own