Sharing a bit

Depression
#1

I went to my psych doc right before I got hurt,when my meds were changed.I had a talk with him about my take on depression,and I wanted to share with you all.

One of my thoughts when I’m in a deep depression is that I’m in a black hole at that moment.I see the light at the end,and I know I can get there,because I’ve been there before.The journey will be tough,but I know I can make it out.

The other thing about my depression,is that I lose myself.I play so many roles(as you all do):mother,wife,daughter,granddaughter,friend.In all that giving of myself…I don’t feel like it’s real.It’s like I’m playing a role of these ‘jobs’ in my life,and I’m acting.In the shuffle,I lose the 'real’Cleta,and I can’t find her at all.And I forget who the real Cleta is.

Does anyone else have these thoughts?Or is it just me?

Thanks for letting me share.

Huggs,
Cleta

#2

Willow Rose,
losing yourself in all the roles is easy to do. They way back can be difficult but I know you can do it. You are a good soul and you will have my support as you face your challenges. Hugs Buddy!

#3

It’s been a really hard past few days for me too…i have no idea who i am anymore either…I’m simply not just HEATHER anymore…i’m 5 little ones mom…sometimes i’m just “the nurse” …i’m “the girlfriend”…“the ex-wife…”  and the other half of the time i just feel like “the bitch!”  There is no time to just be me…or to even begin to figure out who that person even is!!!  I wish i had a clue where to begin!   i apoligize i know that wasn’t very helpful…but i do completely understand!!!