While I no longer suffer from chest/back pains, I do notice my heart racing, especially in the evening when really my hectic day has long been over, I’ve eaten, spent quality time with my son. There shouldnt be anxiety for me at that point. The only explanation I have is my last year of vivid nightmares with graphic violence (although I havent had those since August) perhaps has created some anxiousness about heading to bedtime. I’m not sure about that though.
What I wanted to say though, is that I am, for myself, anti-pharmaceutical. I keep in my awareness that my brain may be my most precious part, and I’m a little scared about washing it with chemicals that might have lasting effects or damage, or at the very least keep it from being what it needs to be.
I havent ever looked at my periods of depression, grief, guilt, anger, hatred or any other overly intense emotion as something bad in need of erradication – but as something Nature(or God) -given. There must be a purpose for it. What I do want to change about it though is its impact on my life.
I’ve posted before about making a calm, almost humorous mental note “oh look, I’m having anxiety right now”, and timing them
EMDR has helped me keep my painful memories, my life history intact, honoured and “part of the story of who I am”, but it has greatly reduced the amount of energy and intensity and IMPACT each memory and its subsequent emotional reaction/baggage has on my ability to live my life in the manner I want for myself and my son.
Also I’ve acepted the fact my heart, and nervous system want me to MOVE, take ACTION when I feel anxiety. So I dont lie there and try to suppress it. If I’m awake enough I do the stairs in my condo building, or I walk up and down the halls or outside around the building as fast as I can, or things I’m sure might look silly to my neighbours if they can see me, jump up and down on the spot, punching in the air…any number of things. If I’m almost asleep when I notice it happening in bed, then I purposely try to envision myself running in a sprint, or the Boston Marathon so my brain at last can have the satisfaction of having taken action.
I dont know if that will make sense to you.
I also have been doing other peripheral things, like
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taking the stress complex of B vitamins which has all through my life helped when my mood has gotten dark
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seeing an RMT (my particular one specializes in the Feldenkrais Method)
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this one makes me cry - I gave up all chocolate and cocoa products because unlike coffee for some reason it imemdiately affects my heart rate
I came across a website yesterday that talked about changing the pattern of your thinking with relation to depression and anxiety, I’ll see if I can find it and post it to you.