What Else Could Happen?

Pancreatitis
#1

Thanks to so many of you who have asked how I was doing!!! I often don’t know what I’d do without your added love, friendship and support.

I’ve been trying to get caught up on many long-overdue doctor appointments (non-CP, which is what’s been the only priority for almost 2 years)… and on top of finding that a direct, young relative had just developed metastatic breast cancer, I found 7 new lumps-- on top of a small “tumor” they’ve been following for years (still thinking it’s just a benign tumor). They reminded me that I was supposed to be seen for a 6-month follow-up back in 2004, but the CP has monopolized my life with so many surgeries and hospital stays since that everything else became a “lesser” priority.

They now need some diagnostic studies on these new breast lumps, and the doc also found a large growth of concern on my cervix-- all of which will be tested this Friday and I’ll hopefully know more then… but either way, I can expect more needle biopsies as well as a surgery to remove the growth and to biopsy it. When all the docs start rushing you around and the diagnostic folks are fitting you in within a day, you know they’re concerned.

Nothing else new w/the CP-- Just trying to get in enough nutrition/hydration on this bland, no-fat, soft diet instead of TPN-- but what a relief to eat anything! Still getting low-grade fevers, but the doc from yesterday’s findings thinks they could also be from this growth, not any additional infection. Good and bad news together, I guess.

After now 15 admissions (or is that 16?) in the past year and just as many surgeries, it’s hard to imagine more surgery-- but I’ve been having this lower pelvic pain for nearly a year and the PCP/GI docs kept saying I’d have to follow-up on it after the CP calms down. Guess I get to now do both at the same time.

I’m still handling everything the way I do-- With the most positive outlook possible, but there is a point where I have to wonder why so much keeps happening. I just want my “normal” life back so much-- and I know you all understand that feeling too well.

Any support is appreciated-- Also, I’ll be adding to the blog at www.lisabard.com this weekend and for anyone interested, check out the Group with the link on CarePlace under “Empowerment Unlimited.”

Thanks to all of you and wishing all some pain-free times!

Many hugs and love to all,

Lisa

#2

My dear friend Lisa,

YOU ARE A STRONG PERSON AND WONDERFUL EXAMPLE TO ALL OF US. YOUR POSITIVE ATTITUDE AND GREAT HOPE THAT EVERY THING IS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT ONE DAY IS NOT GOING TO WASTE, PEOPLE WHO HAVE SUCH STRONG BELIEF THEY WIN AND JUST LIKE YOU THOUGHT IT IS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT DARLING.

*'Oh, God, are you looking down so many people with so many illnesses - why are you making such wonderful people so much. Someone said, the God gives all the problems to make us more compassionate and helping towards other people. Don’t you think we have become enough compassionate, enough helping to each other? You have to give relief to this wonderful woman by taking away some of the problems about which she doesn’t have to think about them. Heal the body and mind which has become so frustrated by struggling with so many challenges in life, Give peace to mind and take away all the thoughts she has to think about daily and instead of making some of them better and taking away those problems to give a break you add more problems. Is this your way testing?

God, Please listen to our prayers and give this special person some peace of mind even though she has so many problems she tries to so many people putting away her hurting problems away. If you are testing her, I think she proved that she is capable of handling anything and still has positive attitude. What prove do you need what else she has to do?’

This is the time for you to do something for her God! HELP HER, GIVE HER PEACE OF MIND AND LET HER HAVE THE HAPPY AND WONDERFUL LIFE THAT SHE DESERVES, GOD!’

Love you Lisa for your never ending courage and never ending compassion for other people. I’m sure you are going to get better or get to a position where you will learn to manage some of the things with the so many advanced technology which makes it easier for you to have some kind of close to normal life.

I’m glad I’ve found this group and your friendship before anyone can become my friend you gave me so much support. I can never forger that.When people do good always sometimes made to suffer without any reason, I kept asking this question through out their life they tried to help people, they don’t give up, they just keep on going taking along with them others who need help too, why do they have to suffer? I don’t know.

My love, support, whenever you want to talk or need to share something I’m here for you darling!
You have so many people loving you and supporting you. Hope all our prayers and thoughts for you work out and your life get at least little bit easier than now. I’m always praying for you dear friend.
Love you Lisa and please close your eyes and feel my two hands giving you a loving hug and sending the sweet breeze which brings the fragrance of flowers - smell them, not just your friends but everybody and everything in nature is looking out for you, trying to make you as comfortable as possible. I’m not giving you any speech these are all my feelings for you. I can’t see a great person like you suffering like this.

JUST LIKE YOU BELIEVE ONE DAY IT’S GOING TO BE ALRIGHT, I BELIEVE THAT TOO FOR YOU AND EVERYONE IN THIS SUPPORT GROUP.

Lots of love and many hugs.
Durga.

#3

Lisa, it certainly does seem that you have had more than your “fair share” of suffering. You haven’t really even had a chance to take a breath. I wish I could help you relieve some of your burdens. Stay strong and feel free to write me anytime.

#4

Lisa, you are in my prayers. Remember to keep breathing…you are not your disease or your body’s lumps and bumps…Betsy

#5

I second what Betsy said. It is important to remember that our illness is not our identity. Stay strong and take small bites (don’t bite off more than you can chew…it wont get you there any faster)

hugs