Hi everyone,
I’m sending this from the hospital. It was such a bad, cruel, excruciating pain,unbelievable. I hated it. I wanted to scream leave me alone, I had enough. Enough is is enough already! But I was already saying things that was scaring my daughter and didn’t want to scare my both angels anymore.
I tried medications at home. They didn’t even touch my pain. Then I had to call my husband and we ended up in emergency but still thinking we should be able to make it by Monday to go India.I came here Fri arround 11am. And shivering started and I had fever of 102 and when I was admitted the nurses brought all the culture bottles to take blood for test and I thought my trip is gone!
When my GI doctor came to see me (He was in the office this week and another GI doctor who was in the hospital (admissions) got admitted me) I cried so much and he just held me calming me down. I kept saying please don’t tell me that I can’t travel on Monday. When I calmed down then he slowly explained, we don’t know why you got this fever let’s see the results and then we can have a plan. Please don’t think that this trip is cancelled. it’s not. It’s just got postponed. This week you may not travel but we will send you to India next week definitely. I said, are you sure? He said, Of course I’m sure.
Then I started feeling better. I called my close friend Lisa Mcdugall and told her what doctor told me. She said, see there is nothing to worry. Something will work out. You are a trooper and I admire for that. You don’t ever give up, that’s what I like. I thought really, I gave up until the doctor came. They say nice things about me because they don’t want me feel bad and feel better.
Now I don’t have fever and my pain is better and hoping by tommorow the blood results should come and they should be able to reduce the pain medicine by Monday morning and discharge me then we should be able to go to India without postponing and without disappointing anyone in India.
If that doesn’t work then we are going to postpone to next Monday and rest little bit if there is any infection. Yesterday I was so upset and got mad at this stupid disease which made my life miserable but still I’m making adjustments and moving on with my life but this was too much. We were going to India after 9yrs and this is what it does to me?
After 8 months of treating myself the attacks at home I came to hospital this time. And the doctors and nurses are very nice. Last Monday we met with my GI doctor and he gave us letters, prescriptions and asked us to send photographs and he was so happy for us that I was able to manage pain at home and even if I get an attack in the flight or in India he had the confidence that I can manage.
Everything is ready, all the suitcases packed and I did bead work for some of the dreses and I started making the watches for ladies with pearls, Czech firepolished beads,birthstone beads etc and I got sick.
I think either way now I’m prepared if we postpone I’ll get some rest or if we can travel on this Monday then we don’t have to change anything.
It feels different coming hospital after such a long time.
Hope everything works out and we can still have good time especially my little daighter, it’s her first trip and my son who is going there after such a long time and going through such a hard time with mom’s health problems. My husband who works continuously to make everyone comfortable needs to see his family, friends and needs a change of scene, relaxing and doing something different than always in stress about me, giving shots, getting prescriptions, going to appointments, hospitals - who can take all that pressure?
Some men who believe in family and love like my husband Sreenivas, Angela’s husband, Cindy Lou’s husband, Mrs. Barb’s husband and many others. Please apologize me if I forgot. I’m on PCA pump and you know how it makes to forget things.
Hope you guys are having painfree day.
Lots of love and Many hugs to all of you!
Love,
Durga
