I am very depressed and have been fighting it pretty much alone for 8 months or so. I am really stressed financially, just getting out of school again at 47, having to move away from everyone and everything dear to me once again after two wonderful, happy and productive years. Hurting mainly from being jilted, so to speak, recently also. Only man I fell in love with after husband came back in my life seemingly a changed person and claiming to want a life together. That went on like a fairy tale but he changed back into the colder old self sometime in spring/summer.
I feel like shaking all the time, don’t want to and can’t really afford to go anywhere except of course need to go to work.
Lots of issues all stressing me to the max, mainly I don’t make enough money and I fear I will never get a better job.
This time last year I was surrounded by so much support, loving and fun friends and free counseling that was wonderful at school. What I thought was the love of my life had come back into my life then too, and I was so surrounded by so very much support.
I’m ashamed that I still have not been able to “get on my feet” after my husband left me out of the blue on 911, six years ago now I guess.
I’m really scared and lonely, and feel so shaky and hurt that I can barely sleep at night. I am trying desperately for a wonderful position that miraculously opened up right where Iwould like to go back to. I could even have inexpensive counseling again, enough to live decently and affordably and most of all be with dear friends again.
I’m sorry I sound so pathetic; I guess I feel it right now. I know there are people with many worse problems, but my doctor (who’s back there too) says that comparisons like that aren’t helpful when we are severely depressed, etc. or something like that. Anyway, he made me feel less like a freak or a loser, whatever he said.
I don’t know if this is a group you can “talk” to others and encourage each other… I sure hope so.
Thank you for listening.
