Me again…I hope everyone is having a good night. I was having a good day until I woke up w/ chest pains again. I really am trying to convince myself that it is all in my head. But the pain is there, it’s real! My husband walks around the house wondering what “mood” I’m in. Then if I’m in a bad mood, he immediately says…“It’s your heart right?” I’m tired of saying yes and having to justify my pain. I wake up every morning w/ chest pain. Some days it’s tolerable others I’m ready to rush to the ER.
I have had so many cardiac tests, and they are all fine. But WHY do I have the chest pain. Do I create the pain? Am I so used to having the pain that I don’t want to let it go? Then I feel my heart skipping and I’m sure next will be the real thing. I feel like I’m losing my mind. And I am not enjoying life right now or my two boys. I’m so worried about when I’m going to die rather than living right now in the moment. But I always think I need to be ready and alert just incase it’s the real thing. UGH
Do I trust the doctors and find a way to stop this insanity? Do I beg for a angiogram eventhough the test are fine. Does anyone suffer from health anxiety? Do you have a chronic pain that is always with you?
I’m just rambling now…thanks so much for listening! Have a good day everyone!
Christine